It was a feeling like never before. Every day with him was fireworks and excitement. I first met Nathan at a farmer’s market nearby. We both reached for the last orange on the table. It was like sparks went through my body, and when we looked at each other a fire lit in our eyes. That was about four months ago right before school closed. He was a new student and I got to show him around. We’ve been together ever since.
“I’m not going in there Nathan!”
“Oh come on Jaycee, it’ll be okay.” Nathan and I were at the beach chilling in the fall breeze when he suggested going in the water. It was inviting, but I was still scared because I don't know how to swim. My parents have tried teaching me, but after watching a scary movie about a kid drowning in his backyard pool, I swore off swimming.
“I already told you that I can’t swim.” He took my hand.
“I promise I won’t let you drown.” Nathan stuck out his lip and his gorgeous green eyes pleaded with me. I tied back my short hair and sighed.
Maybe it will be okay.
“Fine but you cannot, and I repeat cannot let go of me or else.” He smiled.
“Deal.” We waded into the freezing water and I squeezed his hand. Luckily I was wearing shorts and a tank top.
“I’ve got you,” He assured me. Nathan showed me a few moves and techniques like the doggy paddle. I still wasn’t ready though. He held me up bridal style, telling me to stretch out my legs and arms. Nathan's hands held onto my waist and I calmed a little. I smiled and closed my eyes, listening to the sound of waves and seagulls overhead. The sun warms my skin, as the goosebumps recede.
His hands slowly slipped from my waist and I panicked, reaching for him.
“Nathan! Nathan!” Water escaped into my nose and I started choking.
“Jaycee I’ve got you, stop moving!” I halted my movements and he took me out the water. As I laid in his arms exasperated, he laughed while I stood there bent over; coughing my lungs out.
“What’s so funny, I almost died!” Nathan kissed me on my cheek.
“You should have seen your face.” I stood up shakily and picked up our towel to dry off.
“I would like to go home now and take a hot shower.” As we held hands, we walked to the parking lot, climbed into his truck, and drove to my house. The thing is, we never made it there. It was so quick and unexpected that I hadn't fully realized it until I woke up.
We were at a red light waiting for it to turn green. As soon as it did, we took off not noticing the other car coming from Nathan’s side. The impact hit us hard. I felt my body hit the door and then into Nathan. My head hit the glove compartment and everything went black.
A humming sound woke me up and my eyes were blurry.
“She’s waking up,” a male voice said. Turning my head, I saw my parents standing in front of me crying.
“Mom, Dad? Where am I?” My mom clutches my hand.
“You were in a car accident, and now you’re in the hospital.”
“Car acci- wait where’s Nathan!” I scrambled to sit up and a terrible pain shot up in my arm.
“Jaycee take it easy, you shouldn’t move a lot.” There was so much worry in their eyes; I could tell that there was something wrong.
“Where’s Nathan is he alright?” They look at each other.
“I’m sorry, Nathan didn’t make it.” There was no greater pain I’ve ever felt, than what I was feeling now. Tears pooled out my eyes and I screamed.
“No! He can’t be!” My parents embraced me and I just couldn’t believe it.
That brings me to where I am now at his funeral. I am trying my hardest to keep it together but it’s very difficult. Standing in front of his coffin now, I realize something.
“Before you died, I planned on telling you this but wasn’t sure that you felt the same. Now I wish I did.” I touch his cold face.
“I, I love you Nathan.” A few tears dropped on him but I didn’t care. He was my first love, and I’ll never forget him. We shared so many beautiful memories together than made me feel grateful for