A mouth that won’t speak
A heart that can’t beat
A mind that can’t think
A soul that only weeps
And a spirit trying to rejoice.
I latch on to something real, only to have it dissipate into the chilly air. A thread skips through the knots of my fingers, slithering across the hills of knuckles and finding refuge in the burning rays. What I grasped is gone. Losing sight of reality turns dire when the sun peeks over the horizon, sliding its way over the moon. Who knew the radiance of light could kill a bond I shared. It severed a link. The light kills as bad as the night.
How much can the body take before the shivers shut it down?
The body moves like a crushed snail.
Where is the blazing fire ball from space? Where hast thou gone?
There’s no escaping the powerful tune of
59. 58, 57…
As the countdown to shutdown screams bloody murder in its intestines.
Where is the blazing fire to kill the frozen bumps biting pure flesh?
40, 39, 38.
Internal organs turn to ice cubes, turn to glaciers.
The fire in the sky glances at the body, then hides
Behind the sad puffs in the sky.
The body is beyond healing, the body is dying an internal freezing death!
5, 4, 3, 2, 1.
Poof the body disappears like a speck of dust caught in the cold stabbing wind.
Only the phalanges of the right hand, clutching a red lead pencil remain.
Why am I, it, they, shunned by the beauty of sunlight, for it runs and hides
Like we’re playing a game of hide and seek.
Does the sun think me a friend? Or foe?
Foe I believe, because it let the body die.
Oh yes the sun kills with a stab of ice, and a clogging of heat.
Beware of the white blaze, it will put you to shame, put you in a grave
With the others.
I turned around to find a friend
I turned around to the end
Solid ground floats away from me
I called out to the sky
Because she never said bye
Cancel the dreams
Undo the seams
She has gone and left me here
Unraveled and unclothed without my friend
Is this the end?
That’s what it’s all about
Broken in half
And taken out
Every day is
A black out
Faded and burned
I have drifted
And been torn
Little pieces scattered about
And in doubt
How long until this ends?
When shall I be put together again?
Can I be stitched, and sewn?
Mended and grown?
I cannot feel
But yet I know.
I cannot show,
But yet I appeal…
To the broken dark souls,
Hiding, waiting, infatuating,
The day I give up and
Let them drag me away.
Tears burn away my bravery
The saltiness stings the last
Piece of dignity I have left...
Why do emotions hurt me so
Why do I allow the thorns to grow...
There's a lump in my throat
That grows with every thought
My heart pumps to a solemn beat
Why does the truth not taint the lips
Why do lies write the scripts...
Curses be Mother Sadness
Curses be Father Madness
Sadly a new day has closed
Maybe an old one shall open
Door stoppers break legs
And fresh faces always fade
Take it away
Bring it in
Switch the brakes
Fix the gear.
I wish yesterday was tomorrow
So I could be a psychic
Don’t you wish you had your way?
Don’t you wish you knew what was behind door number 2?
Be human and fight the dragons
Keep swimming to the finish line
Don’t hold me back with your fears
Just stay afloat.
Just stay afloat
If you drown you’ll be gone
Just stay afloat
Just stay afloat.
Keep breathing for me they say.
What about me?
No let’s not finish that sentence, it’s too gruesome.
It’s too sad.
The words I use do not have the same meaning
As they would for everyone else
Only I understand.
No one cares to care.
See? That doesn’t exactly mean what it means.
Stop being a surface feeder.
Catch a feeling
Throw a fit
Those sad faces of humanity trace the outline of earth tainted with lost poison, half a land filled with disdain, sound proof walls to disprove the infiltration of rescue.
Help me help myself. I’m lost in this void of dust floating like the rest of life just running off with my happiness and achievements leaving me with the scorching part gripping my nerves. It’s like a shock of lava. My veins filling up with torture, oh just torch me now and end this misery I’m living in.
Each breath burns the living out of my throat as if I was drinking boiling water. HA! The heated poison of rejection kills my lungs. Draws out the truth and gets stuck on purpose, clinging to my life. Mine and mine alone, but yet it has taken a hold, grip, gripe, and snatch, snitch, dip in a pool of lemons and ice, but no relief for the hate. I hate that they love to hate me. I hate how they pretend to care.
I hate how they’re supposed to care, but they don’t.
IF LOVE WAS A CRIME
He’s always watching.
I feel his eyes bearing into my secrets. The expression emitting from his pores: He is suspicious of me. I’m the person of interest. Each time is just a slight glance, a split second glimpse taking a piece of me to investigate. My every move is under scrutiny. He barely speaks. Barely interacts. But.
Always. Watching. ME.
I feel- I am exposed. Strapped to an examination table. Secrets written in silver pouring out of my skin under his watchful care. He wants me to think I’m crazy, but I’m not. I know what I know. He’s subtle. Handsomely subtle. I’m too alarmed to confront. Too intrigued by his inquiry. Maybe even flattered. For once, I am the suspect. Sometimes I think he knows, but won’t say anything. Every time my presence is made, his silence is donned. I don’t know what this is, unless someone has whispered my name into the swirls of his ear. Unless a certain someone has hired him to tail me.
But there’s they don’t know.
I’m a black widow with many webs, intricately designed to thwart wanderers like you. My poison injected into your veins will dry out your ambition.
So go ahead Detective Comics, try and catch me.
That’s what I am, what I’ve become
Oh how long have I been confused?
My thoughts heavy, my heart just numb
There’s nothing worse than being bruised
Left out in the cold, nowhere to go
I thought you cared, I thought I mattered
Well now I know
Now I’m crestfallen and tattered.
It's dark and scary out here
With strangers walking around
They kick me aside and sneer
For days I've been waiting to be found
People say that dolls aren’t real
That we have no thoughts or heart
You thought that I couldn't feel
And now we’re torn apart.
Where were you when I called out?
Nowhere to be found that’s where
How disgraced I feel, all washed out
It’s a horrible feeling aren’t you aware!
How did this become?
When did it begin?
I thought I always saved you from being glum
Your favorite because I always made you grin.
You said you loved me
But I guess you lied
Does my pain give you glee?
I wonder does my happiness make you cry.
Amy said she’d never leave me
But she grew older and did just that.
She was going to college you see,
With that hideous boy Matt.
Long story short,
She threw me out like a wart.
That’s what I am, and what I always will be.