9/20/2018 0 Comments The FriendI turned around to find a friend
I turned around to the end Solid ground floats away from me I called out to the sky Because she never said bye Cancel the dreams Undo the seams She has gone and left me here Unraveled and unclothed without my friend Is this the end?
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8/9/2018 0 Comments UnattachedNot together
But apart Not with But without Separated and In Doubt Confused, That’s what it’s all about Broken in half And taken out Every day is A black out Faded and burned I have drifted And been torn Little pieces scattered about I am Apart, Without, Separated, And in doubt I am Confused, Broken, Alone, And dark How long until this ends? When shall I be put together again? Can I be stitched, and sewn? Mended and grown? I cannot feel But yet I know. I cannot show, But yet I appeal… To the broken dark souls, Hiding, waiting, infatuating, The day I give up and Let them drag me away. 8/2/2018 0 Comments Tears burn away my braveryTears burn away my bravery
The saltiness stings the last Piece of dignity I have left... Why? Why do emotions hurt me so Why do I allow the thorns to grow... Why? There's a lump in my throat That grows with every thought My heart pumps to a solemn beat Why? Why does the truth not taint the lips Why do lies write the scripts... Why? Curses be Mother Sadness Curses be Father Madness 7/26/2018 0 Comments Sadly?Sadly a new day has closed
Maybe an old one shall open Door stoppers break legs And fresh faces always fade Breathtaking plunges Harsh lunges Take it away Bring it in Switch the brakes Fix the gear. I wish yesterday was tomorrow So I could be a psychic Don’t you wish you had your way? Don’t you wish you knew what was behind door number 2? Stop crying Be human and fight the dragons Keep swimming to the finish line Don’t hold me back with your fears Just stay afloat. Just stay afloat Afloat Afloat. If you drown you’ll be gone Don’t drown Just stay afloat Afloat Just stay afloat. Keep breathing for me they say. For you. What about me? Shouldn’t I No let’s not finish that sentence, it’s too gruesome. It’s too sad. The words I use do not have the same meaning As they would for everyone else Only I understand. No one cares to care. See? That doesn’t exactly mean what it means. Stop being a surface feeder. Hypocritical words Catch a feeling Throw a fit 7/12/2018 0 Comments i'm lostThose sad faces of humanity trace the outline of earth tainted with lost poison, half a land filled with disdain, sound proof walls to disprove the infiltration of rescue.
Help me help myself. I’m lost in this void of dust floating like the rest of life just running off with my happiness and achievements leaving me with the scorching part gripping my nerves. It’s like a shock of lava. My veins filling up with torture, oh just torch me now and end this misery I’m living in. Each breath burns the living out of my throat as if I was drinking boiling water. HA! The heated poison of rejection kills my lungs. Draws out the truth and gets stuck on purpose, clinging to my life. Mine and mine alone, but yet it has taken a hold, grip, gripe, and snatch, snitch, dip in a pool of lemons and ice, but no relief for the hate. I hate that they love to hate me. I hate how they pretend to care. I hate how they’re supposed to care, but they don’t. 7/5/2018 0 Comments if love was a crimeIF LOVE WAS A CRIME
He’s always watching. I feel his eyes bearing into my secrets. The expression emitting from his pores: He is suspicious of me. I’m the person of interest. Each time is just a slight glance, a split second glimpse taking a piece of me to investigate. My every move is under scrutiny. He barely speaks. Barely interacts. But. Always. Watching. ME. I feel- I am exposed. Strapped to an examination table. Secrets written in silver pouring out of my skin under his watchful care. He wants me to think I’m crazy, but I’m not. I know what I know. He’s subtle. Handsomely subtle. I’m too alarmed to confront. Too intrigued by his inquiry. Maybe even flattered. For once, I am the suspect. Sometimes I think he knows, but won’t say anything. Every time my presence is made, his silence is donned. I don’t know what this is, unless someone has whispered my name into the swirls of his ear. Unless a certain someone has hired him to tail me. But there’s they don’t know. I’m a black widow with many webs, intricately designed to thwart wanderers like you. My poison injected into your veins will dry out your ambition. So go ahead Detective Comics, try and catch me. 6/28/2018 0 Comments forgottenForgotten
That’s what I am, what I’ve become Oh how long have I been confused? My thoughts heavy, my heart just numb There’s nothing worse than being bruised Left out in the cold, nowhere to go I thought you cared, I thought I mattered Well now I know Now I’m crestfallen and tattered. It's dark and scary out here With strangers walking around They kick me aside and sneer For days I've been waiting to be found People say that dolls aren’t real That we have no thoughts or heart You thought that I couldn't feel And now we’re torn apart. Where were you when I called out? Nowhere to be found that’s where How disgraced I feel, all washed out It’s a horrible feeling aren’t you aware! How did this become? When did it begin? I thought I always saved you from being glum Your favorite because I always made you grin. You said you loved me But I guess you lied Does my pain give you glee? I wonder does my happiness make you cry. Amy said she’d never leave me But she grew older and did just that. She was going to college you see, With that hideous boy Matt. Long story short, She threw me out like a wart. Forgotten That’s what I am, and what I always will be. 6/21/2018 0 Comments Dear future selfDear future self,
I hope you’re happy Living the luxury of life you want. May your smiles be broader, And your eyes brighter. I hope you found help For all the bad experiences that tormented you May your days be filled with joy, And your voice rasped with laughter I hope you have your dream job Saving lives even though you could barely save your own. May your heart be whole, And your ears happy to listen I hope your knight in shining armor rescued you From all those terrible voices in your head. May your thoughts be kind, And your conscience clear. I hope your world is at peace From the better decisions you might have made. May your steps be lighter And your days longer. 5/31/2018 0 Comments What is x plus z?We always ask why, but never search for the answers because we’re scared of the truth hitting us. Losing our pride and demeaning our ego.
We try so hard to make x+z equal something when we know it never will. You can’t get to z from x without passing through y. 5/24/2018 0 Comments The glass beneath my feetI thought everything was okay until I saw you. My world shattered. The fumes tumbled out my mouth like acid reflux, spilling over my lips. I cried from the inside and tried to crawl over the spikes glinting towards my helpless self. I can’t hide when I want to. I have to be seen by all.
Don’t allow your face to betray you. Don’t show emotions. Weakness is only an inch away. Flakes flicker light as your irises twist and stretch. In and out they pull, dragging, luring me into the dark abyss. A trap waits in the glorious dungeon of pupils staring into my own wide ones. What I want to see is not reflected in what is before me. A disgusting lump of fiction clothed in desire, truth, and satisfaction. Makoma. Bruised from the left common carotid to the apex from the sharp blows of your fantasy. They left purple patches as a reminder to never look through a cracked mirror. |
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