Transformation

​Good space
Head space
Happy place
I am there now.
 
Bad space
No space
Scary place
I was there then.
 
Clear mind
Content mind
Optimistic thoughts
I have now
 
Messy mind
Restless mind
Obsessive thoughts
I was there then.
 
I saved myself
From drowning
In a sea
Of compulsion and anxiety and self-degradation
 
No
He saved me.
Him who’s kingdom could never be shaken.
Him who’s patience means salvation.
Him who dragged me out the depths of my mind.
 
So deep I couldn’t see two feet in front me
Murky waters surrounding me
 
Now I can breathe in fresh air
And supply my body, mind, soul, and spirit
With the proper care and nutrients, it lacked so much before.
Thank you, God.
 
Because I was truly lost in a cycle.
Grabbing for control of the world
While lacking Self-control
Or even self-appreciation.
 
Desperately trying to gain favor in the eyes of people who
Weren’t for me, just so I could have a sense of friendship.
To feel like someone cared because I didn’t.
But He does.
And I’ve learned that sometimes that’s all that matters.